It's hard to imagine that a year has just flew past. 2006 gave way to 2007 and now 2008. So, how do I sum up 2007?
The beginning of the year was definitely a period of transition, both physically and mentally. I left the abode of my Melaka home and went to KTJ for my A Level studies. Because it's a boarding school, I only returned home every two or three weeks. It was a testing start to the year but thanks to the warm welcome I received at KTJ, I settled down quickly and made new friends. However mentally it was much worst. Readers would recall a huge series of depressing posts since the beginning of this blog... To put it simply, I was depressed. There seemed no end to my emotional problems and it was certainly one hell of a roller-coaster ride. This period probably shaped my mood for the rest of the year, though I did light up a bit later on. The pain and yearning still hurts sometimes, but it's important to let the past stay in the past, and truth be told, it's high time to move on...
After finally settling down, life pretty much resumed to normal going from first gear to full steam ahead. There were university applications to fill in and exams to study for and these basically took up a huge part of my time. Other times were spent on my co-curricular activities and there were rarely time for rest. In truth, the better part of the year were spent on work but yet still, 2007 will be best remembered for the downs rather than the ups. Fate was having a right go at my self-esteem and it suffered some real battering. Hence the probably endless brooding through out the year but thankfully, there were always my friends to help me get back on my feet. There were definitely more misses than hits and I'd like to put them behind me as soon as possible to face the challenges ahead...
So what can I look forward to in 2008? For starters, university life beckons in September and there goes another chapter of my life... Other than that, I have unfinished business in KTJ and would need to sort out my stuff before I leave. The yearbook needs completing, Larkin needs to be analysed and more equations to learn :) (Not that I'm complaining of course!) I doubt there would be any surprises for me installed in the new year (pleasant ones are always doubly welcomed!) but we would just have to wait and see. Probably less brooding and depressing I hope, but the stress would undoubtedly come with time. With luck, time and inspiration, I'd keep you guys updated with happenings in my life... For now, here's a very happy new year and a wish list for 2008!
1. University offers, which is probably THE MOST IMPORTANT thing right now. Cambridge would be very nice, though I won't say no to the top US unis and if I'm lucky, some choice come May lol.
2. A laptop cooler? My Dell overheated while I was playing Battlefield 2. I can hear Chong laughing his ass off now haha. But seriously, I need to get one for the sake of pro-longing its life-span. Plus, it improves typing ergonomics :) Oh and lets not forget an external hard-drive...
3. Freedom to drive alone... 'Nuff said.
4. An excellent yearbook by my committee. This would probably be my last editing project and I hope to make it the best ever. We definitely have the talent, but what about commitment? Hmmm....
5. More time spent with my family. If I'm going to go abroad for my degree, this is definitely a priority.
6. An end to my health problems. Seriously, I think it's time I grew out of eczema already! Gah... Also my wrist... Haven't seen a doctor but I hope it's not serious...
7. More time to spend alone or with friends. I need my own space too, but company's always nice! Haha. I've not been in the best of moods but hopefully this would change for the better.
8. Results! I'd probably attempt STEP again in June and I hope that turns up well enough... Otherwise, I'm not too worried about my A Levels. Have to be careful not to be too over-confident though...
9. Something to cuddle up to at night if I'm feeling lonely :D
10. I want my confidence back again. 2007 practically drained it from me and I need it back if I'm going to want to succeed next year... It would also mean a lot if people understood how I really feel...
There are people I want to see again, and I hope fate will reunite us in time... There's no more chance to turn back the clock, but I would have hoped for a better end than silence... ~Zhongy~
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