Sometimes what you get is not what you want, and most of the time what you want is not what you get......
Sometimes you feel that you deserve more......
Sometimes you feel so empty inside, and no matter what you do you can't fill the void. You want to talk to somebody, but you're afraid that person is too busy and might push you aside. That would make you feel even more hollow inside......
Sometimes you just wish you were really close to someone you're comfortable with, who can relate to you and hear you pour out all your troubles......
Sometimes you just want to trust somebody......
Sometimes you feel so detached from reality that you're just floating around. Nothing matters, you're just in a suspended state of mind where you don't care......
Sometimes you stay up the whole night in your room, because your mind is still held onto reality......
Sometimes a tune strikes a chord, and you can't hold back your emotions, nor your tears......
Sometimes you feel happy for someone because that person succeeded. Sometimes you're self-destructive because you can't achieve the same, no matter how hard you try, no matter how good you think you are......
Sometimes you just feel so small, that you're not good enough, and there's nobody to support you when you fall......
Sometimes you're afraid that your hard work won't pay off, and all of it goes down the drain......
Sometimes you fear that you're losing that midas touch, that talent to do and make things right......
Sometimes the spark is just missing, and you miss the glaringly obvious......
Sometimes you feel that you're not living for yourself. You're living for others......
Sometimes, you're so uncertain of the future that all you see in front of you is a black hole, but no light at the end of the tunnel......
Sometimes, you doubt even your own judgment, your own principles, your own existence......
Sometimes, you hope for too much......
Sometimes, you hold on to the smallest things, and those things just isn't enough to sustain you......
Sometimes you feel like the walls are caving in, and your world's already in ruins......
Sometimes, you just don't have the will to pick up the pieces again......
Sometimes, your best just isn't enough......
Let the need drive the will, let the will guide the spirit, let the spirit fulfill the means, and let the means justify the end......~Zhongy~
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No. 20 - Zhong Yang.