Hey guys there's nothing much happening at my end. My holidays are going to start soon - 30th March to 15th April (YAY!) so I'll be around in Malacca at this time haha. Anybody who's free please look me up. Don't feel like bringing much work back even though exams (horror!) are in May and June (gasp!). Haha anyhow please do drop by and keep in touch. Decided to do something different this time around. This is a poem in my English Literature syllabus which I feel is quite meaningful at this period of my life. It basically sums up my current emotions. I know the last few posts had been quite depressing but I'm kinda going through a bad patch in my life now. For those who can't bear seeing me like this, I'm sorry but please bear with me for the moment. Hopefully things will take a turn for the better soon. At least I'm praying hard for that. For now, this is the poem:
I Am
I am: yet what I am none cares or knows,
My friends forsake me like a memory lost,
I am the self-consumer of my woes -
They rise and vanish in oblivious host,
Like shadows in love's frenzied, stifled throes -
And yet I am, and live - like vapours tossed
Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,
Into the living sea of waking dreams,
Where there is neither sense of life or joys,
But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;
Even the dearest, that I love the best,
Are strange - nay, rather stranger than the rest.
I long for scenes, where man hath never trod,
A place where woman never smiled or wept -
There to abide with my Creator, God,
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept,
Untroubling, and untroubled where I lie,
The grass below - above the vaulted sky.
John Clare
Hopefully I don't get sued for publishing this here haha. Anyhow yea that's it this time. I'll try to write more when the holidays come. Cheers people, I hope all of you don't need to feel what I've gone through. ~Zhongy~
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