Alright sorry people this posting is long overdue as the internet broke down last weekend. First off I would like to thank all the people who wished me happy birthday. Its greatly appreciated, I didn't think anybody would remember... Thank you all, it really lifted my spirits.
17 years... looking back at everything, now that I am in KTJ, I've came a long way since my days in S.R.J.K. (C) Pay Fong II and St. Francis. Along the road I've met lots of people, done lots of things, and had lots of different experiences. I realise that though there may be regrets and hardships, there were also triumph and joy. Truly, my past has shaped me to be what I am today, and I'm very proud of that. I believe the values instilled, the lessons learnt, the friendships bonded, had made me a better person today. Some people may think I'm a loner, and yes I admit, I'm not exactly the friendliest person around. However, I think I'm truly lucky that all of my friends are people I can truly trust, can truly count upon when I need them. For that I am greatful.
I've met people who've moved on to another stage of their life, and they try to throw away, run away from their past. To them, the past only brought them harsh memories, and they wish to forget, to start anew. I pity them, for the past, no matter how bad, is the blueprint for the present you. I myself had been hurt before in my past. Sometimes it cut so deep that I'm afraid the wounds will never heal. However, I do not try to push these memories away. I let them be a part of me, to strenghten my resilience. You who want to leave everything behind you, I'm sorry that as a friend, as a person in both your past and your present, I have failed to stop you. I have also failed our friends, who have been together with you in the past. I apologise. However, do not forget that one day, the past will catch up with you. You will be forced to face the people you have carelessly abandoned, and I hope that meeting will make you realise your mistake. You may feel now that your past is a burden to your ambitions, but trust me, its not. I hope that when you realise this, your friends will be able to forgive you for what you've done. Somehow I know that they will, because they will stay true to you...
Moving along, I turn to the future. I'm still not certain of what I want to be... My current subjects combination, Double Maths, Physics and English Literature, is a reflection of my interests, whether in the arts or sciences. In truth, I find myself able to cope and excel in both fields, and I'm torn to choose between these two. The future certainly looks uncertain, but I look forward to it with great expectations. With my past to guide me, I am not worried. I know that I will always try my best at everything that I do, and there is nothing more that I can expect from myself. I had never wanted to be the center of attraction, all I ever wanted was peace and tranquility with my inner self, and we everybody around me. I pray that one day I will have the priviledge to enjoy both... ~Zhongy~
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